{ feeling : depressed
{ hearing : class banter

I don’t like this semester. As I go into these higher up there classes, I just find myself in deep shit in terms of getting out in the industry. I feel nothing I do is special. I know I shouldn’t compare myself to anyone, it’s hard not to when we go through these critques like second nature.

I’m sitting in class pretty much on the verge of tears because how terrible my shit is in comparison to everyone else’s work. I feel embarassed to show it after seeing all this good stuff. It’s like when I finished my first animation, I was so proud of myself and then I come into class where everyone is amazing at drawing and understanding this software … Everything I do is crap. Everyone else is AMAZING.

I hope two concerts this weekend cheers me up. I feel really shitty after the first few weeks of class … I wish I was better but I’m not. I don’t think I’ll survive out there on my own. I don’t think I’m good enough of a designer. I just hear my mom saying, “I told you so,” when I graduate with nothing special.