{ feeling : a tad sad
{ hearing : john paul white – can’t get it out of my head
Making friends is so hard to do. Is there a manual that teaches me how to do such things?
I don’t know how I had the ability to just randomly talk to people at the beginning of high school. I’m baffled on how I managed to talk and get along with so many people in my graduating class but can’t do a single thing now.
I miss a lot of those people.
I’m just so scared now a days. I don’t know … I stumble on my words constantly, I don’t live the lifestyle of the majority, I’m not a fashion savvy, Indie music snob hipster and though mommy and daddy aren’t paying for my tuition, I’m not completely independent in my own apartment someplace. I don’t feel like I’d be able to relate to anyone anywhere.
I can’t really think of anything to talk about.
I hate how I am. Even with all those people I talked to in high school, I didn’t even manage to keep close ties with a single one.
Starting from scratch is hard in college.
I’m just terrible at friendship.
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ok here is an idea to get the ball rolling.
this is something you can practice
ok here it goes:
when you are sitting down, just talk aloud. just keep on talking as long as possible, whatever you think of. if you can’t think of anything, just say poop over and over again until you think of something to say. say whatever comes into your head.
here is a text example
i just cant get you out of my head boy your lovin is all i need it . damn it i just tried to say love in instead of lovin. type type type this expression is not a function! hey screw you blah blah hate hate hate work hate work weeeee wii game over i hate this mission theres so much if you screw up its hard and i like vista because its shiny and zoomy and slightly 3d. this is dumb why is this border here. i’m mad at that. but i have a neat thing. you have to see my neat thing! hey i should get that game done and empty cup and can and too much soda. i have ramen, i’m eating it soon after i finish typing and i wish i had slippers like you.
there, just constant typing. except do that with talking! talk to yourself like a crazy asian woman
-joe- 30 January, 10:18 AM #
It’s tough. I’ve made…three new friends since starting college. One of them was a lab partner so we were together by necessity [and I wasn’t a particularly good lab partner] and the other two were on Facebook, so I don’t know if they “count.” So, y’know, I can relate. Thing is, I was never really able to make friends in high school either, so at least you know you have, at some point, been able to talk to/relate to people.
I’ve spent a small amount of time around Columbia people [I’ve been to movie screenings and been around the dorms and such], and they don’t seem like people who it would be easy to just strike up conversation with and things like that. I try to wear band t-shirts around Columbia, and they’ve never noticed me…and if people can’t notice a good band t-shirt, well then fuck it [someone at UIC noticed my Wilco shirt today. I was pretty happy about that]
You’ll get your groove back.
...then you’ll make a movie about it.
...then all of a sudden, everyone who was at Columbia at the same time you were will say they knew you, were friends with you, and want to edit your movie.
-Brandon- 7 February, 09:56 AM #